How many masks does it take

Yes its true before you can be what you really are, you have to be what you are not. Life is hard enough, without adding impersonation to the skills required.Not being yourself SHOULD NEVER be permanent.


I was chilling with a friend and I couldn't recall a moment when I wasn't being myself. Except for that one time my niece walked in on my crying. I told her something was stuck in my eye and I was trying to get it out. She's 7, not an idiot. But I didn't want her to worry about me. I would do it again believe me.Sure I told a white lie but thats not what I'm focusing on right now. Im talking about being myself.


Now there is a fine line between being Real and Being a Liar, defined they mean;


Lying: a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive
Faking: to cause yourself inferior of not genuine in order to appear more desirable.




OK REALLY? REALLY? You wanna be that guy that deliberately deceives to appear more valuable? Whats wrong with who are, sure we all have insecurity issues but isn't it tiring to be on a stage for the rest of your life, I assure you most of the time no one is watching because, they've seen it somewhere else before. So snap out of it...and begin to like yourself, because the less you are like anyone else, you are unique.

 

How many masks does it take? Really ask yourself. Are you content being A second-rate version of somebody else rather than being a first-rate version of yourself. Stop wearing a mask, you will eventually decide to remove it one day and guess what? a piece of your own skin will come off with it.

OK they don't really piss me off, I just feel sorry for them. And you know how it goes, sadness leads to Hatred! You just wanna slap them back to reality.

So the "Mask" was worn to give confidence to the "alter ego" now I'm not sure if this was a good or bad thing, but what I do know for sure is that "he" was happier with the Mask on because being your alter ego, is being yourself.

V for Vendetta was an epic movie and we never got to see this guys face, which for those that understood the movie didn't matter. He represented the vigilante we all are. All super heroes wear a mask to protect others not themselves. So sure we might all wear masks at some point in our lives for the better of the human race (we all play different roles in life) but when without the mask, you should be able to be still content with who you are. Does Bruce Wayne look unhappy to you? 

As a friend of mine Nicole Malan says “be true to your spoon” – basically, stay true to who you are as a person. Embrace your weirdness, love those freckles, squiff toes, laugh at the sound of your own farts and never lose that little spark that makes you who you are.


I CANNOT & WON'T SUFFER IN SILENCE. Which may seem aggressive than assertive, or that I always want to have my way. But its really all about expressing who I am and not tip toeing around people. I would rather be hated for being myself than be loved for something I am not.


Take off the Mask...BE REAL

MY AUTUMN

In life, like in nature change is constant.We are always changing,which is what makes this entire life thing exciting otherwise wouldnt it all just be a drag. Lets take a lesson in the four seasons of mother nature... so you can follow;


Winter: bad, gloomy
Summer: good, cloud nine
Sprimg: re-birth, another chance
Autumn: the middle ground


One thing about myself that I love/hate is that I KNOW BETTER. I preach but I hardly ever practice. Meaning that whatever pile of cow dung the world throws at me I KNOW that only I CAN turn it into diamonds. But lately I haven't and I suddenly understood why.


I recently learned a skill to identify whatever season in life I was going though and how to work through it, the best I know how. I just had to share...


You see in the period of 4 years I have successfully experienced all seasons, it started off with Spring in 2007 - I felt so alive, I grew emotionally in ways I never thought I could. Everything was exciting, I experienced everything as brand new "beginners mind", not sure if it was the weed or what.
Anyway 2008/9 I was in full Summer mode, everything was brighter and greener, I was on cloud nine and only going higher. Every aspect of my life was great, not sure if it was the awesome sex or what.
Then came 2010 (that matha fucker)...it rained, snowed, blew massive winds and brought the coldest nights ever. Winter really took me by the balls and turned me into its bitch. Nothing was going right, maybe it was the lack of weed and sex or something like that. 


It was February 2011 when I had an "Aha" moment with my life coach, I couldn't understand why I was feeling so emotional, empty and purposeless when I realised I was stuck in Autumn. A place I had never been before, I place I needed to be. You see Autumn is my middle ground when it comes to "important" moments in life that defined my overall behavior. Have you ever felt like you know exactly what to do and how to do it in order to be happy or to move into the next chapter of your life but you feel inadequate lazy and reluctant to do anything? Well thats what Autumn is to me...being depressed.


And because NOW I know better all I have to do is shed my leaves to make space for new FRESH ones;


- Falling of leaves: Get rid of my shitty habits, "bring me down" people and negative attitudes in my life,
- Harvest: Be open to anything and everything by having hope and not basing my present life on my past or future LIFE
- Learning: In Indian Mythology, Autumn is based on the "Goddess of Learning", as crappy as it has been, I have learned so much and plan on learning more and more. I'm going to read more, write more and talk more (for those that know me, yes its possible that I can talk more.


Time to practice what I preach or rather, smoke more weed and have more awesome sex.

It is what it is

Now before you carry on reading this I urge you to put aside your religious, spiritual or non beliefs for however long its going to take you to read this post, because I want you to basically close your eyes and open your mind. I am asking you to put down whatever wall you and the world has put up all your life.

The most stupid question is - why is this happening to me- especially when its not going your way. Regrets is something I also find a complete waste of time. We need to remember that the world, its people and its things will forever work together in perfect harmony. Its just like this global warming thing, its happening, whether we stop it or not...the world will continue to move. Lets say you late for a meeting, chances are something in this crazy life will happen in-between all that. Life doesn't see you as late, rather you were meant to bump in to that old friend that might eventually end up being your wife. Yes I am crazy and maybe a tad unrealistic (whatever reality is to you) but at the back of your mind you know I have a point. Life intended for life to live out a certain way.There are no mistakes. No regrets.

Im not saying you should accept whatever negative thing that happens to you, I'm saying turn all that into a positive opportunity. There is gaining and not losing in life.

A favourite author of mine Neale Donald Welch said these inspiring words...

 Did you know that Life is conspiring in your favor.

It may not always look that way, but it is, I assure you.

Everything that is happening, is happening just the way it must,

 in order for you to have the opportunity to create the experience of your Self for which you yearn.

The idea behind all of this is to give you a chance to

become and to know, at the highest level, Who You

Really Are. 

So keep on.

JOY AND PAIN ARE PART OF LOVE AND LIFE.Embrace it all because you know what...EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON and for the better...always. Life is always working on your side, never against you.

Get rid of the SHIT in YOUR Life.

I just have to point out one thing before getting into this....I only care about peoples opinions if those people play a mutually beneficial role in my life. So if you have something to say about my blog make sure you are important in my life or rather your opinion will make me a better person. Now thats out the way, lets get to it shall we.

I found myself in one of those conversations where you feel "God" has called you to teach types. A colleague of mine was going on and on about how shitty her life was. And me being blunt like a Samurai Sword couldn't help but blame her for her own pile of cow dung. I am a strong believer in the power of CHOICE...YES....everything is a CHOICE, from what you wore this morning to the number of zero's in your bank account, its all a CHOICE.

So playing teacher I quickly slapped her back to reality...people we need to stop playing victim and start living the life we want to live.

I for one made this decision a few years back when I realised that the world doesn't care about your level of happiness, its a jungle out there.

So get your head out the cow dung and take control of your life. The first real step to take is removing all the crap in your life, whether its people that continue to shower you with "lets kill her spirit" piss, the fat in your body that steadily plays with yourself esteem, that huge suitcase of bitterness and regrets or that job thats makes you NOT want to get up every morning. And guess what it really is that EASY! Dont even think for a second its not.

Take responsibility and stop complaining, we don't wanna hear it, hell you don't wanna hear it...and the reality is ...it wont change a dam thing! Im going to leave you with a profound yet one of the most honest statements I came across today from a very wise friend of mine;
Facing it is the first step—and first steps can never be skipped. Fearing it, avoiding it, and drowning it in alcohol, casual sex, partying, drugs, or other risky behavior only temporarily submerges it. Over time is takes more liquor, more dope, and more random sex to numb you from what you see in the mirror. Fun and pleasure are no substitutes for therapy and healing. One is a natural process the other is a terrible alternative that in the end you will pay for with your health, sanity, and self-respect—even the respect of others that love you.http://ramonsreality.blogspot.com/2011/01/tyler-perry-movies-enough-is-enough.html

I repeat everything in life is a CHOICE....get rid of the shit in YOUR life. CHOOSE LIFE! Its waiting on you!